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Raccoon) @actuallyautistic because there was no room in the initial posts, here are the donation links once again:
North American donations: https://ko-fi.com/jackvancouver/goal?g=14
EU donations: https://gofund.me/007216f9
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@actuallyautistic my last local friend to my surprise gave me the SSD I thought he was going to withhold forever, but says I still owe $100. With the gamble I placed on the shop, I can't pay my friend neither even though I have the SSD. He's also still down a car because his parents decided to not help him progress until he learns the lesson of having savings. My anxiety that it means I will be abandoned is through the roof. #aspie #aspielife
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@actuallyautistic the only thing remaining broken on my 13 Pro Max is the screen. It's not getting bright enough in daylight and doesn't effectively auto-brightness itself.
The repair fixed broken NFC and the spots in the sensor by replacing with another camera module.
This is the closest I've gotten to fixing the lemon phone.
Food costs going up took me by surprise as the usual Chinese place I get my meals full of turmeric from increased their prices by $2 after tax.
Yellow curry chicken on white rice is something I need to eat to promote anti-inflammatory properties to stay healthy while I am not paying attention to my health, but now it got more expensive.
Generosity can only go so far, and I also owe a pizza restaurant $60 after going to them during the night I had my meltdown, and they saved my life with money and pizza. If they hadn't helped, the outcome of my roommate threatening to kill me would be far worse. I'm obligated to repay that generosity. #aspie #aspielife
New thread time.
I am on the verge of not being able to pay my rent for my storage locker and internet bill, because I gambled on another repair shop fixing my phone, but this time it did pay off... at the cost of no savings left.
The plan after clearing this initial hurdle is to save $500 on my own when I have proper savings either to screen repair, or to put that money towards trade in difference should a 512GB or 1TB arrive at the shop.
If you believe in me getting better with a functioning phone, anything to help towards that $500 will be welcome, but I need to clear this first initial hurdle.
Money will be going towards 2 more glass containers in addition to rounding out my balances. Turns out my landlords are also lazy in terms of how many spare containers are clean for portioning food. Food unexpectedly increased in cost too.
$20 to balance out budget, rest is food money.
@actuallyautistic #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #mutualaidrequest #emergencyaid #emergencyaidneeded
Everything bad has come to fruition.
Tariffs directly impacted my last local friend so he's no longer talking to anyone. He is no longer giving me an SSD that was held as collateral as a result.
My lemon phone is confirmed to have broken NFC, sensor dust, and a deauthenticated screen. I'm done. I told the shop as soon as a 1TB 13 Pro Max shows up (or 512GB) to let me know. I wasted $7 on blank NFC cards that don't work. He wasted time adding cards to Apple Pay only to find out it doesn't work. He has no business coming in so he may have to stop operating if he can't pay the bills.
All that on top of tasteless food at home and a roommate that wishes I was dead. FML. I really am better off dead. I'm the most vulnerable I've ever been and I'm ready to snap. @actuallyautistic #aspie #aspielife #FML
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@actuallyautistic $20 is on it's way, but at most it is going to cover 3 glass containers. I need more to help me meet my psychologist and have buffer money for food until the 5th. Fastest way to get money to me is still Kofi. For larger payments, they are guaranteed if you use GoFundMe, but it will take longer.
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@actuallyautistic My psychologist just gave up on me again because she wasn't paid.
Verbatium:
"I’m sorry I can’t help you. You will find the ability to cope somehow."
Killing myself sounds pretty good right about now. #aspie #aspielife
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@actuallyautistic BTW, because my phone is broken, I can't call the crisis line. Going to the bridge and jumping off almost sounds like a better option. #aspie #aspielife
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@actuallyautistic NOW THEY'RE VACUUMING #aspie #aspielife
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@actuallyautistic One more thing to trigger me at the house and I literally will go jump off the nearest bridge. #aspie #aspielife
@actuallyautistic I've got Jacksepticeye yelling at 100dba over my speakers and it's still not masking the noise. Screw OSHA. If pain is going deaf, I'd rather self harm. #aspie #aspielife
In what is the absolute worst case scenario for someone with sensory issues, there's now a party in the upstairs living room with Christian worship songs blasting at full volume, shouting, and foot stomping. I have zero support to help with coping with this situation so I'm on a razor thin edge when it comes to snapping. @actuallyautistic #aspie #aspielife
Starting a new thread.
I'm down to $1.43 after spending on getting the phone repaired from a previously broken state, and needing to cure my cabin fever by eating out.
As of now, there's still the risk the screen and rear camera module need replacement, but the battery replacement was 100% successful.
My most pressing needs include money for seeing my psychologist, money for purchasing 4 more glass containers, and money to counteract days where my landlords decide not to cook.
I will face the consequences of taking my time to save up for repairing the phone, but what I just listed that's more pressing is of high urgency. The way I will get better is to be supported by my psychologist, not have issues with a lack of a buffer for meals, and having the money to eat out as a backup plan.
@actuallyautistic #emergencyaid #emergencyaidneeded #emergencyaidneededasap #emergencyaidneededrightnow #mutualaid #mutualaidrequest #mutualaidneeded #aspie #aspielife
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@actuallyautistic official government workers have called my "lack of response" inaction and contentness. Most of this was caused by my lemon iPhone being in the repair shop 80% of the time. With no donations, nothing will be resolved as I will be unable to respond, and counteract their stance that "things are fine if he's not voicing his opinion." I've been more than loud here, but I've had to strategically not go to the agency that is at highest risk of evicting me again. #aspie #aspielife #bcpoli
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@actuallyautistic as donations have completely stalled, I have to remind everyone that I have no income because my mental health is so poor I was deemed unfit to work... however, the social workers want to force work in occupations for those with actual retardation on me. They have no wish to fix my mental health at this point and they want to keep me vulnerable. Without donations, they get to declare victory in keeping me pathetic. #aspie #aspielife
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@actuallyautistic $1.43 remaining. I've paid off my internet bill and now have no money left. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #mutualaidrequest #mutualaidneeded #emergencyaid #emergencyaidneeded #emergencyaidneededasap #emergencyaidneededrightnow
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@actuallyautistic My social worker has just initiated step one towards baiting me into my next eviction. #aspie #aspielife
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@actuallyautistic one last bump for the week to attempt to get donations. With the loss of all coping mechanisms, I'm super vulnerable and susceptible to meltdowns that would lead to another eviction. I need time with my only remaining local friend (requires food money to eat out, as they will not come out of their shell unless a meal is promised) and/or time away from the house to eat out (to fight my overwhelming cabin fever) with meeting my private psychologist in the plans on top of that. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #mutualaidrequest #mutualaidneeded
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@actuallyautistic my entire life is currently halted by a lack of money. I have no support from any of my support circles and my one psychologist is tired of providing free advice when she's supposed to be paid for sessions. Even if I get after fees $25 to visit my psychologist so she doesn't think I'm a vampire draining her of her services pro bono, that's at least better than nothing. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #mutualaidrequest #mutualaidneeded
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@actuallyautistic as much as I keep reminding that this is important to my overall mental health, it seems momentum is just gone now for fundraising and donations. As a result my mental health has severely suffered and I currently am bedridden. #aspie #aspielife