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Forth Chapter
By June, the situation in which ES was living had deteriorated drastically. The borders had been closed for over a month. He wrote that the northern Gaza Strip was being starved: "We lack any humanitarian aid." He continued: "I can't remember the last time we had fresh fruit and vegetables, poultry, meat, or dairy products. Whatever processed canned food is left is being sold at much higher prices." People are running out of money, and there are no longer any banking services. "It feels like a never-ending vicious cycle," he wrote in the chatbox.
He also witnessed Israeli forces using quadcopters to attack civilians. "Once we were at the market, where a group of people were shot at, killing at least three people. It's horrifying, to say the least."
In July, ES asked his brother to travel to get more medication from a sibling's stash of his doctor's medicine. Although it was a great risk, he returned with enough to last ES until October. It was a relief to have more pills left, but he wrote, "When these run out, I WILL absolutely have to find another way to get them because, as far as I know, there are none left up north. And I don't know if they can send any more up north."
ES decided it would be best to ration his medication and skip doses. "I did that for a few days. But my doctor told me I couldn't do that under any circumstances. It's better to be cut off from the supply than to ration/share it or mix up the dose."
As the months passed, the stress became too much for ES. "I try to persevere, trust in my faith, and do my best to find a way out, even though working under pressure has never been easy for me. I've turned to certain organizations to get medicine to Gaza, but every door I knock on is closed. The only door that never closes is God's, and maybe by sharing my story, I can finally get the help I need."
On July 10, ES wrote: "It's been crazy here. The violent clashes have been extremely close. Everything has gone crazy in the last few days. " The raging conflict made it impossible to imagine when his dwindling supply of pills might be replenished.
In August, ES's original doctor stopped responding. "I hope nothing happened to him," he wrote. On September 15, ES wrote: "For the past ten months, I've been lucky. I had access to my HIV medication because I stayed in northern Gaza. But now I'm running out. I took the last doses available in the north," and he was told "no more shipments are arriving. There are no more medications for me."
Mylan brand blue pill box: Lopinavir/Ritonavir 200mg/50mg, 120 tablets
white pill box from Mylan: Emtricitabine/Tenofobir, 200 mg/300 mg, 30 tablets
At that point, Dr. Tarek Loubani, a Canadian emergency physician of Palestinian descent representing a medical organization called Glia, saw ES's story on Instagram and contacted him to help. Loubani has participated in more than 20 medical missions in Gaza since 2011 and continues to do so, despite being shot in 2018, which he downplays ("it was the cleanest shot possible").
On their first scheduled mission after the October 7 attack, Loubani's group brought various medications to prevent shortages, including 100,000 units of insulin. But when it came to HIV medication, the first problem Loubani encountered was that ES "takes a very, very, very specific medication that most people with HIV don't use."
Nevertheless, Glia did everything she could to obtain the medication, but was thwarted in several countries. "I thought we could simply buy it in Jordan, but in Jordan, access to the medication was absolutely forbidden to anyone who wasn't Jordanian."
"I don't have great news," Loubani wrote to ES in early October, along with a photo of three bottles of urgently needed lopinavar/ritonavir tablets that had been procured in Canada. "Everything is ready for entry in Jordan, but on Tuesday the entire team was denied entry. It has been postponed until October 22nd.
If you know of anyone who will still be allowed in, I'll be happy to pass it on to them."
But when Glia transported a three-month supply of medicines to the Gaza border, the shipment was confiscated. Then Glia, along with some of the organization's medical volunteers, was barred from entering Gaza. The organization believes this was retaliation for her contribution to a New York Times essay published on October 9 under the headline "65 Doctors, Nurses and Paramedics: What We Saw in Gaza."
When contacted, the Israeli Coordination of Government Activities in the Territories (COGAT) responded that "Israel neither blocks nor restricts the import of medicines, including HIV medications, which can be imported without quantitative restrictions." COGAT did not directly address a question about whether Glia had been retaliated against for the Times article, but merely described an article about the suspension as "outdated" and said, "The organization's activities have been approved."
Loubani said Israel treated the medical supplies "basically like weapons depots" and accused the military of "burning down many of the medical depots it found." Loubani said the Israeli military was "stationing snipers in front of some depots." A pharmacist "ran and tried to get the medicine, was shot in the neck, and miraculously survived," Loubani said.
Then, in mid-October, ES's house was hit by a rocket. He, his brother, and his mother barely escaped with their lives. In his Instagram stories, he shared a picture of a damaged wall. ES said his brother had been sleeping next to it, but his cats, his constant companions, were found dead under rubble. In a video shared by ES, an emergency worker says, "Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah," as she leads him out of his destroyed home, while he clings to his walker and wipes tears from his face.
ES moved with his family from his damaged home to a friend's house, which they rent in another part of Gaza City. "I haven't been able to rest lately. It's been four days, but all my psyche needs is to return home and rest, and I can't," ES explained.
On October 26, ES was finally able to reconnect with his original doctor from the Ministry of Health in the south, who had good news: He was able to get more of his medication. One of the medications is intended for children. "So I have to take 2.5 tablets instead of the one I used to take."
On December 3, Loubani wrote: "Good news: Lopinavir/Ritonavir for 3 months finally arrived on Tuesday. Now we need to get it to Gaza City." Many people around the world helped make this happen because, as he put it, "HIV medication is important for everyone. It holds a special place in people's hearts."
HIV medications are important for everyone. They hold a special place in people's hearts.
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ES currently has a few months before he needs to worry again, and he says his mental health has improved significantly, but he still desperately hopes he can leave Gaza before he runs out of medication again.
"No matter how tirelessly Israel works to make things work for us who suffer in Palestine, the magic and power of God defy these efforts," says ES. "They are evident in these small acts of grace—the kindness of strangers who have expressed concern and offered help, and the miraculous arrival of my medication through a plan I could never have foreseen. These acts of grace keep us steadfast in Gaza."
By Afeef Nessouli and Steven W. Thrasher. Originally published on January 13, 2025. Translated from English and republished with permission from The Intercept, an award-winning nonprofit news organization dedicated to holding the powerful accountable through fearless, adversarial journalism. Sign up for The Intercept's newsletter.
